A: Your emotional response is entirely understandable anyone in your situation would feel the same.
Talking to a close friend about how you feel might help.
For the lymphedema try the Sun Ancon Chi Machine: you lie flat on the floor, place your feet on the machine and it rhymically wobbles your legs.
It sounds odd, but it's actually extremely relaxing I've tried it and its been clinically proven to help reduce they symptoms of lymphedema.
It isn't cheap but it's a worthwhile investment.
Hazel kindly gave permission to use this testimonial (an extract from a talk she gave to around 100 healthcare professionals at a Lymphoedema awareness day.)
Having always been an active person who loved tennis and dancing, and having been in the entertainment profession all my life, I found it absolutely heartbreaking not to be able to pursue these activities any longer, not carry out normal duties, and my work was taking a dramatic dive as well, as I could no longer handle the commitments.
Then a miracle happened, and thanks to a kind and caring neighbour, I obtained a Sun Ancon machine. I can’t believe the improvement in only seven weeks! I no longer wake up with blinding headaches and feel so full of energy—it’s amazing. I can now stand for a lot longer, and in fact I am on my feet for hours at a time, and two weeks ago I was able to visit a local market and managed to walk for an hour without stopping to rest. Now I am able to do my own shopping again in one hit and do all my own house cleaning in one day as I used to. I no longer fall asleep when I sit down, and am back working in my profession two or three nights per week. I have not had a sinus attack since using the machine, and my hair and skin have improved greatly. The best news is though, I have lost two kilos in fluid, already.
My seventeen year old daughter recently contracted a severe dose of
glandular fever. After spending four days in bed extremely ill, she
used the machine and was back at work within two days, completely recovered.
The best way to describe my Sun Ancon machine is that it is like a battery
charger for the body, and using it for fifteen minutes two or three times
a day suits me fine. I couldn’t be happier, it’s given me a new lease
"I must say I find the Chi Machine absolutely wonderful. I have much more energy, the fluid retention is really under control which has a knock-on effect on the angina. I could really see myself going down the road of "watertablets" which I did NOT want. So, yes, wonderful, worth every penny! All thanks and good wishes to you from Erna Leathley."
The benefits of using a machine were explained to me by my reflexologist who had noticed I was suffering from oedema in spite of eating healthily and taking regular, if limited, exercise - I have MS. So I borrowed one, then quickly bought my own because I could immediately see the difference it made.
I even hired a machine when I went to Canada because I could not bear the thought of being
away from it for two weeks.